I got promoted on the 20th. It's pretty crazy because I wasn't even sure if I should stay with this company, but it turned out I was just looking at the wrong path.
True, why would someone want to give up stable benefits and a 401K for something that could very well fall through in this day and age. Being stagnant and a little miserable is better than not having health coverage and a steady paycheck, yes? No. I was in a toxic environment that was making me increasingly upset and depressed every day. I love my customers, but I just couldn't stand the behind-the-scenes aspect any longer. This effected my mental well being and my physical energy. I tried to look at job sites and to also apply internally. But I was not meant to be a supervisor now, and I knew it.
When I realized that I could absolutely do the customer service side of things with a whole new set of training to go through, I got excited. I had built a tough skin (finally) over customers ripping me a new one when they don't get what they want or are frustrated. I know I can learn all this new information and processes very easily. It is the challenge I desperately need. The manager at the sister branch I applied at loved my energy and enthusiasm, leading to me accepting the job offer.
Energy. Enthusiasm.
Two words I haven't heard in a very long time.
I know I kick ass at what I do, but I lost the zest and consistency for carrying it out. Now that I will be in a new environment with a fresh perspective, I feel so optimistic. I have aspirations of moving up. I don't want to wait another 4 years to do so.
I've been comparing this to graduating high school. I have been given the tools I need to succeed at the next level. These last couple weeks have felt so good. Normally I would feel sad and weepy, but I will still be seeing them two Saturday mornings a month, along with having them a phone call or email away. Normally I would feel guilty for leaving things in such a crazy time, but I can't. I won't.
I'm free.
Good for you and bravo for taking such a big step in your life. I will quote from Sangharakshita as read on the Cambridge Buddhist Centre web site, "You need to take risks. If you don't ever face the possibility of failure, then you don't ever face the possibility of humiliation, and therefore of growth. Failure will only have a meaning for you if you have made a tremendous effort to succeed." You know you will succeed but there maybe some bumps along the way. Congrats!
ReplyDeleteCongrats!! Sounds like you made the right choice and can't wait to hear how it goes. :)
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